Finally experiencing that famous tick-tock was unsettling, I admitted, but also a relief. Even so, I wasn't ready to dismiss my decades-long ambivalence. If I were to "get on this, immediately," as he was weirdly insisting, I'd be doing it alone.
In 2010, when we were both 37 and I heard she was pregnant from anonymous donor sperm, I felt the same awe as I had when her documentary was nominated for a 2006 Oscar.(My stepmother also battered and psychologically mistreated me. I worry occasionally about finding myself alone in a big indifferent world, but I also know that children can be the ones who put you in a facility against your will, steal from you, or otherwise break your heart. Interestingly, though, I often daydream about step or foster children.I've heard that that often dissuades women from wanting children.) It helped that my now-husband was adamantly anti-kid. I guess I feel as if I have a lot of hard-won wisdom to share, if anyone wanted to hear it" —Christie L., 52"I have a very clear memory of babysitting when I was about 12 and thinking, this isn't going to be my life.I might have allowed myself to be swayed otherwise. My first husband and I were married when we were 22 and I was very intent on having a career as a journalist and traveling a lot.We agreed to delay the decision about children until we were 30.